Today is day 23, I believe. And today is the first day I’m starting to really feel better in my head. It’s not perfect by any means, but it is starting to feel more controllable. It still feels like I’m fighting to keep this quit, but I actually could loosen up a bit.
I cried again at work today because I was frustrated. I cried previously because I wanted to smoke to fix it and then cried because I wasn’t smoking anymore. Today I cried because my feelings were actually hurt. It was a very raw and honest feeling. I can’t help but wonder, do we feel our emotions more when we can no longer hide behind our addiction?
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