I wish I could say this was getting easier…but the past 2 days have been hard. I haven’t caved and I’m not giving up and I’m actually surprised that I haven’t driven to the store and bought a pack. I’ve thought about it. I’ve day dreamed about smoking a cigarette, how it would feel. I guess I’m more looking to feel the way I did 3 weeks ago. I’m tired of dealing with this struggle…the conversations in my head are exhausting. There are minutes and hours fixated on smoking. Wanting that to be the fix of my problem. But it is the start of my problem and not smoking is the end of the problem.
The thing that keeps me going is reading and hearing about how much better it gets, how glad people are that they quit, best thing they ever did, blah blah blah. I’m going to try my best to see if they are right.
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